[private]

Lily, Lily, Lily. Sweet, lovable, NAÏVE Lily. What were you thinking? You told Bug you thought of him as a good friend and didn’t want anything to ruin that. You hurt him by saying those words. You could see it in his eyes. He said he was okay with it, and you believed him?

Why wouldn’t I believe him?

So why were your surprised when he turned around and said he wasn’t okay? And now he says he’s over it? Do you believe him this time too? Of course you do.

Of course I do. I believe everything everyone tells me.

That’s what you always do, isn’t it. You just believe whatever comes out of people’s mouths. Garret is fine. Jordan is fine. Woody is fine. Nigel is…

Well, there isn’t anything wrong with Nigel. I hope…

Anyways, the point is…mock someone? I mock myself!! Oh Lily, we’re all so happy. Come join us while we frolic in a field of lilies. Yes. Lilies.

Okay. Let’s frolic!

UGH!

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Words: 169

Working in the morgue took some getting used to. It was a little creepy at first, but it doesn’t bother me so much anymore. It also helps that I have an actual office now.

I remember before my nice, well lit office, the first time I sat at my desk in the crypt. I had theses goose bumps that wouldn’t go away, and I couldn’t help but feel like there was someone else in the room. Well, there was someone in the room…sort of. Dead bodies? Are you alone if you’re surrounded by the deceased?

Sometimes it’s hard to tell. Some bodies are quiet and empty. Other times, I’m certain there’s another person’s spirit in the room. Some of the spirits are peaceful. Some are unsettled, like they’re fighting to stay in this world. You can always tell when the dark ones are around. Those are the days you know not to sneak up behind anyone. Not unless you want to spend some time lying around in the morgue, if you know what I’m saying.

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Words: 175

Say what you have always wanted to say but have been afraid to.

Dear Dads,

Mom died. I thought maybe you'd want to know. She was run over by the wife of the man she'd had an affair with was in a car accident. Andy and I found out she was really our aunt, but I'm guessing maybe you knew that. Is that why you never stuck around? Andy has been a jerk about it is fine. I'm okay. It's still hard sometimes, but things are getting better.

I'm in Boston now. I'm a grief counselor at the medical examiners office. I'm not sure where Andy is, not that he'd want to see you or me anyways.

You can stop by and see me if you want Just wanted to let you know not to worry even though you probably wasn't worrying to begin with. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm going to end up like mom, and Andy is going to end up like you.

I hope things are going well for you.

Your Daughter Sincerely,
Lily


Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Word: 164

I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. It's sunny out and my favorite song was playing on the radio. - Good karma

In the middle of showering, the hot water cut out. I had to finish rinsing out my hair in the freezing cold water. - Bad karma

While making breakfast, I saw an ant in the kitchen. I killed it. - Bad for good karma

When I left for work, the elderly woman next door needed help locking up her apartment, so I helped her. - Good for good karma

I went down to my car, and there was a giant dent on the side of it. I'm pretty sure it wasn't there yesterday. - Bad karma

I got into the morgue, and there were a bunch of delivery men moving around boxes. - Feels like bad karma

It sounded like Jordan, Bug, Nigel, and Garrett were in the break room. I went to see, and they were all laughing stringing up lights. Our Christmas decorations finally got here from storage. - Good karma

Bug plugged in the lights, but they didn't turn on. One of the light bulbs is out and we have to test each light individually to find the bad one. - Bad Christmas karma

When we find it, the entire room lights up. Jordan hands out cups of hot cocoa and we all stand there watching the lights blink. - Definitely good Christmas karma

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Words: 240

Didn't I already answer this? Oh wait, that was "What's your favorite time of day?"

I like mornings. Birds chirping, sun shining though the blinds, assuming it's a nice day out. But even if it's awful out, I'm perky, for the most part. I walk into the morgue, usually really cheerful and with a cup of tea. I know, it's a little unexpected, working where they store and cut up dead bodies, but I can't help it. It's not that my job is all that cheerful, or that the morgue is all that peppy, but I just feel that way. I like waking up and knowing that I have a purpose. It makes getting out of bed just that much easier. I wake up feeling great, it's usually the stuff that happens later in the day that can get to me, but every morning is like a breath of fresh air.

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan
Words: 151

We moved around a lot when I was growing up. It was probably every two years or so. We would pack up everything we owned into boxes and load it into the car.

The drive to wherever we were headed next was always the worst part. Andy would get carsick, and we would have to stop along the side of the road. While he ran around outside, I sat in the car. I could see myself in the side mirror, tears running down my face. Every time, my mom would say, "It'll be better next time. You're going to like it there, you'll see."

Mom would yell at Andy to get back in the car, and we'd start driving again. In a way she was right. I always liked where we were, I just didn't like having to leave. I'd watch myself cry in the mirror the rest of the way there, my eyes dried by the time we got "home".

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Words: 161

What the? Whoa, it just got a lot more crowded in here.

*Lily looks around as an 8 year old boy and a blue blob run past her*

Um, little boy!

Who you calling little?

*Lily turns around to face the voice behind her. There is some guy grinning at her*

Who the heck are you?!

ooc: meet Nick(_nickstokes_), Mac and Bloo (mac_and_bloo) ;)

She came in to talk about her son. We were about to start talking, but then she looked at my hand and saw my tattoo. It wasn't anything offensive, just something I'd gotten years ago. But she got upset, said she wanted to talk to someone else, and left.

It doesn't sound like a big deal now, but it was the first time anything from my past hurt my ability to do my job. It was my fault this woman couldn't talk to me. Or, that's how I felt at the time.

I had to fix it, so I had it removed. Lasers.

The next day, she came back and apologized. See, her son had a lot of tattoos, and seeing mine just hit her hard. Even with what she said, I still had it in my head that it was me.

Okay, so the overcoming part. I have to say I didn't do it on my own. I have good friends. They're my family. I don't know where I'd be if they weren't always around being supportive. I know that's what everyone says about me, but the only reason I can be me, is because I have them.

Lily Lebowski
Crossing Jordan (Misc TV)
Words: 199

Jellybean ran away...sort of. I think it's hiding in the morgue somewhere. I just hope it doesn't jump out and scare someone to death. We don't need any of that. In the meantime, I left it some carrots and a bowl of water in the breakroom. I hope that's what pink blobs eat.